Hold On, Be Patient!

Don't know how many times I've said this already but let me say it one more time: Life is full of surprises!!
I try to keep that in mind in order to get myself prepared so I won't be too surprised or shocked about whatever is going to happen in my life. 


But again, I failed to do that.

Here I am, laying in my bed and asking myself this one question over and over and over again: 

"Is this really happening to me?"

Even though I'm 100% sure I already know the answer but sometimes I'm refuse to accept it.
Inside me, it's like there are always 2 people battling whenever I have to face hard times like this.
One is "Ms. Confident" and the other is "Ms. Insecure". 
As I've noticed for a couple of times,  "Ms. Confident" has always won the battle...and this time is no exception.


Earlier in my sleep, I heard someone whispered: "be patient". 
I know it's her.
And I want to say thank you. Thank you for reminding me. 


Yes, 
All I need to do now is be patient. 
I should not get frustrated.
I should not be impulsive. 
I should stop getting emotional so easily. 
I should stop complaining about how slow God's work is. 


But let's believe that my life will be back soon...
And I will be as happy as before again..
Soon...Just not now. 
It takes time.

Let's hang in there. 

Hold on and be patient.

:)